YAY.... meh .... Ya.

Not many people know this yet but, I’m going on a journey. Not only a physical journey, but it is also a spiritual one as well. I have been informed that my immediate family is moving. So doing my best effort to be the most suitable mother that I can be, I am going to leave as well. Recently I was having a conversation with an old dear friend of mine from “way back in the day” and we discussed my situation and all the details of it. We came to the conclusion that it was ambiguous, thoroughly ambiguous. My situation was difficult to comprehend, distinguish, or classify the need for me to act, and what act was needed for me to do. So I decided to follow my heart and to follow the love of my life, my wonderful and astounding, baby girl, Emily. I know I haven’t been the best mother like so many of my young friends that also have children, have done. I have a brain injury, and without my mother I don’t know where my daughter and I would be. My mom is a wonderful woman, and I love her to pieces. She’s my savior, and I apologize if I haven’t expressed how thankful I really am that you’re in my life, and how much you’ve helped me. I know it’s hard a lot of the time for you to have to raise another child. I just want you to know that I love you and am extremely appreciative of your kindness. Emily is wonderful too. She amazes me in everything she does. She is the smartest two year old I know. Furthermore I know this is not exactly the most suitable method for me to let everyone know that I won’t be around for much longer but I had to listen to my inner person, and do what is right. During my decision making process to follow my mother and daughter, I lost a couple (what I thought at the time) were my good friends. I’m sorry that I have to let them go from my life. But such is life. I was once told by an older person that I was quite close to that “Everything happens for a reason Amanda.” I now know that this is true. I have an opportunity to start my life over. Pretty much reinvent myself, and I am going to seize that opportunity.


- Mandi.