Happy Times; In My Life, Old and New To Come.

I, as you all well know, am moving to Alberta in about a month. I went to bible study last night over at Annette and Scotty's house, it reminded me of the old days. The old days when I would set up for New Heights starting at seven in the morning, and all my happy times, and .... I'm going to miss this more then anyone can understand. Last night I was surroundedd by those people that are very close to me. I was reminded how much I am loved. I am happy that I am going to be with my daughter, but I don't know how long I will be able to stay away for. Don't get me wrong, the internet is an amazing thing that helps people stay connected to each other, but I am going to miss my everyday hugs and being picked on by those who love me. Right now I am sitting down at the Bad Dog Grill, helping Scotty in the kitchen with prep and such, I miss Mona Pizza. Mona's was my release from anything and everything. When I was at Mona's, in my element, all my worries drifted away I was happy to be at work and to be running my restaraunt. But such is life, and everything happens for a reason. I'm really thankful that Scotty lets me come in and work. It's almost like I remember it. I go back to my statement of Ambiguous. Well that's the best way to explain my feelings. I'm quite sure that most of you feel a little betrayed that I am leavinG. I know you put all that work into showing me that I am loved and appreciated and then I decide that I am leaving. Well I am completely apologetic. I pray that you'll forgive me. I will be back. This isn't the end of Amanda as we know it. I'm cpoming back. I promise. I love you all. Well to ens this on a positive note back to work I go. I will be in Mission until probably Saturday or Sunday. I have a baby shower to go to on Sunday in Chilliwack.

Love always,
Amanda.

My Living Situation

It's really not that bad, sure I spend all day at home bored but I have a roof over my head and I'm happy. I still can't wait until I get to go to Alberta to be with my babe :D

YAY.... meh .... Ya.

Not many people know this yet but, I’m going on a journey. Not only a physical journey, but it is also a spiritual one as well. I have been informed that my immediate family is moving. So doing my best effort to be the most suitable mother that I can be, I am going to leave as well. Recently I was having a conversation with an old dear friend of mine from “way back in the day” and we discussed my situation and all the details of it. We came to the conclusion that it was ambiguous, thoroughly ambiguous. My situation was difficult to comprehend, distinguish, or classify the need for me to act, and what act was needed for me to do. So I decided to follow my heart and to follow the love of my life, my wonderful and astounding, baby girl, Emily. I know I haven’t been the best mother like so many of my young friends that also have children, have done. I have a brain injury, and without my mother I don’t know where my daughter and I would be. My mom is a wonderful woman, and I love her to pieces. She’s my savior, and I apologize if I haven’t expressed how thankful I really am that you’re in my life, and how much you’ve helped me. I know it’s hard a lot of the time for you to have to raise another child. I just want you to know that I love you and am extremely appreciative of your kindness. Emily is wonderful too. She amazes me in everything she does. She is the smartest two year old I know. Furthermore I know this is not exactly the most suitable method for me to let everyone know that I won’t be around for much longer but I had to listen to my inner person, and do what is right. During my decision making process to follow my mother and daughter, I lost a couple (what I thought at the time) were my good friends. I’m sorry that I have to let them go from my life. But such is life. I was once told by an older person that I was quite close to that “Everything happens for a reason Amanda.” I now know that this is true. I have an opportunity to start my life over. Pretty much reinvent myself, and I am going to seize that opportunity.


- Mandi.

OK So It's Official I've made the decision!!!

I'm going without a doubt in my mind. I lost a couple "good" friends because of it. But what's gotta be done has gotta be done. If you were me what you do???? Exactly what I thought. As of mid June to July I'm Gandi. Miss You and love you all. But Such Is Life.



- Mandi.